Frustration, proof and inspiration

Dead ends are not a reason for quitting.  Several days ago I thought I'd found a path Phi through WD Gann's "The Tunnel Thru the Air" and its mathematic reflection in the "Map of Time."  On further research, it didn't work.  Frustration.

At each rejection, it seems I receive proof and encouragement.

Any truly interested reader (so few there are I expect), will recall the personal significance of the date, September 18.  Its a personal date reinforced by previous coincidences, synchronicities, in my study of WD Gann.  It is the date that links Luo Clement (a pen name of WD Gann) with the 1920 series of essays by the Einstein Editor appearing in Scientific American.  It is also the date that I saw on the "13th stone" that I sought and found on my third trip to Green-Wood Cemetery.

It is the date we lost our 25-year old son; September 18, 2007.

I don't want this to be about drama.  Those coincidences are just what happened and the only way I can indicate what factually happened this last week is to allude to the emotion I feel each time I encounter that date.

I do not know why I have not looked in the "Map of Time" for meaningful encoding or narrative.  Maybe I have and just didn't "observe."  Did I "see" and not "observe" as Sherlock would say?  Or did I "see" and chose not to "observe?"  Here is what I discovered in the "Map of Time" yesterday afternoon:

On the exact line, line 1600 above, where the date September 18, 2007 appears, I find the acrostic and telestic letters 's' and 'o.' Since there is only a single acrostic and a single telestic letter on each line, I look for a nearby 'n.'  And, as you see the 'n' is above the 'o.'

Searching for some meaning like "Your son is in Heaven" or "You loved your son so much," I search the nearby acrostic and telestic letters and find more contiguous letters describing two sentiments:

"sad son left me"

or

"son left me sad"

My son was depressed, as are many veterans, so the first sentiment is understandable.  The latter sentiment is a truth that goes without saying.  Both may be correct; a single phrase with two equally true meanings.

After the sting wore off, I was left with several thoughts.  Foremost, this isn't random.  I can't prove the statistics, but I don't need to do so.  I sense the statistics so far out on the fat tail of improbability that it needn't be evaluated had I that expertise.  Its an intended message.

Secondly, I read the narrative as often I believe there are thoughts Mr. Gann wished to be emphasized.  Robert "re doubled" his study of the Bible and the Book of Ezekiel in order to create his invention that would save his country.  I'm not a Bible student and have only patronized Mr. Gann's instruction that the student read the Bible three times out of that obligation I felt.  I've seen but have not observed; read but not comprehended.  I take the narrative to mean I need to do what Robert did.  And do it with enthusiasm and urgency.

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In the last twelve hours I've now followed many threads suggested by line 1600 and the date September 18, 2007 but that's not the important element of this thread;  its that "he knew."  Mr. Gann knew.  I know this because its been, time and again, proven to me in my weakest moments of resolve.

Melodrama?  Why am I, given my perception that I claim these things are proven to me, receiving this information?  Is it, perhaps, Professor Koestler's dilemma; "Why did I receive this prediction if I cannot save the world?"  Or perhaps it is as small as changing me, personally, as Professor Koestler acknowledged in the last two words of the movie "I know."

Melodramatic for the vast majority of the very few that will read this; very real for me.

Jim Ross